I Heard His Thoughts Never His Love Chapter 04
Silas stared at me.
My indifference finally seemed to infuriate him.
Out of spite, he bit down on the other end of the fry.
The cheering exploded.
The fry grew shorter inch by inch.
Their faces moved closer.
His thoughts were deafening.
Nora, stop me!
I don’t want to get close to her. I’m only trying to make you jealous.
This is what you get for ignoring me.
I don’t love her. I only love you!
My chest ached.
I didn’t want to watch anymore.
I stood and headed for the door.
Silas’s expression changed instantly.
He dropped the fry, rushed after me, and grabbed my wrist.
“Don’t go.”
It was the first time he had ever said those words out loud.
His eyes were red.
His voice softened in a way I’d almost never heard.
“I won’t lose my temper with you anymore. I won’t say cruel things either.”
“Nora, I came all this way to find you. What else do you want me to do?”
Forgive me.
We’re going to get married. We’ll always be together.
I only want you. Don’t abandon me.
But faced with this long-overdue compromise, I felt no joy at all.
I gently pulled my wrist free.
“Every cruel thing you’ve ever said was like a needle driven into my heart.”
“After ten years, there’s barely anything left of it.”
“Silas, I’m tired.”
His expression froze.
When I still didn’t give him the answer he wanted, humiliation and anger surfaced in his eyes.
“If you won’t marry me, I’ll marry someone else!”
My heart trembled.
My voice remained strangely calm.
“Marry whoever you want.”
Silas’s face darkened.
He grabbed Serena and pulled her closer.
“Then I’ll marry her.”
“She’s more mature than you. More accomplished than you. Her family, her abilities—she’s better than you in every way. Anyone with eyes knows which one of you to choose.”
His words still hurt.
For ten years, nothing had wounded me more than being compared to Serena.
When relatives mocked me for being ordinary, Silas had hung one of my paintings in his room and said coldly,
“She’s Serena. You’re you. Nora doesn’t need to be compared to anyone.”
When my parents called me a disappointment during college admissions, he pushed my acceptance letter back toward me and awkwardly said,
“You’re already good enough.”
He knew exactly where my wounds were.
Which meant he knew exactly where to stab.
Get angry! Tell me you’re going to marry me!
I’m only saying this because I’m mad. I don’t want to marry her at all.
I forced back my tears and smiled at them.
Love left unspoken could never be known.
But hurtful words spoken aloud never disappeared.
“Then I hope you stay together forever.”
After I left, I canceled every remaining plan, finished my university paperwork, and waited for the week to pass so I could leave for Edinburgh.
As if determined to force me into giving in, Silas—who had never posted about his life online—suddenly began sharing constant updates about his engagement.
Trying on formalwear.
Choosing rings.
Booking a hotel.
Both families threw themselves into the preparations.
My mother helped Serena pick out jewelry.
My father checked the guest list.
No one remembered that I was leaving.
Maybe that was for the best.
On the day of my departure, everyone was rushing to the hotel for Serena’s engagement party.
I stood by the door with my suitcase.
My mother only frowned.
“You have to go out and have fun today of all days? Silas and Serena are getting engaged. Stop throwing a tantrum.”
“You’re not going anywhere. You should be there to congratulate her.”
My father impatiently called from outside.
“There’s no room left in the car. Leave her. She can get to the hotel herself.”
No one asked where I was going.
No one remembered that today was the day I left.
“Okay,” I said softly.
Then I called a cab and went to the airport alone.
Before boarding, I blocked every one of them.
At the engagement party, Silas kept glancing toward the entrance.
Serena lowered her voice.
“Stop making it so obvious. Even if the engagement is fake, we have to make it convincing.”
“What if Nora is hiding somewhere watching us? She’ll figure it out.”
Silas tightened his grip around his phone.
His unease grew.
“Why isn’t she here yet? What if something happened to her?”
Serena smiled.
“Nora has too much of a temper. She needs to learn a lesson. Trust me. Once she gets jealous, she’ll come crawling back.”
But the ceremony was about to begin.
And I still hadn’t appeared.
Silas finally couldn’t take it anymore.
He pushed through the crowd and found my parents.
“Where’s Nora? Why isn’t she here?”
His voice trembled.
Panic filled his eyes.
My father looked confused.
“I watched her leave in a cab. She should’ve been here by now.”
My cousin, standing nearby, casually wiped his mouth.
“She’s not here. I saw the route on her cab app. She was heading toward the airport. You guys didn’t know?”
Silas went deathly pale.